Fear is a wildly inaccurate time machine.
Think about it. When you fear something you are placing yourself in the future and imagining what you might experience.
It's always the worst of the worst if you let your "thinking mind" get the best of you.
You subconsciously commit to the possibility of your inaccurate predictions.
So much so that you don't even need to think about it anymore in order to feel the feelings of fear.
You might be cooking dinner, but you're in fear.
You might be scrolling Instagram, but you're in fear.
You could be watching a movie with your family, but you're in fear.
It surrounds you.
It consumes you.
It weighs you down even when you can't pinpoint the specificity of the fear.
That, my lovely Bad Bitch, is the fear of uncertainty.
When factually speaking all things are uncertain.
You've normalized daily dangers that have a higher likelihood of taking you out.
You've neutralized those fears by continually surviving them and your brain put them in the "no-shit circular file."
This experience is new, not just the virus itself, but the change in work schedule, your family is home, and, with so much love, you are used to someone telling you what you are supposed to be doing.
So much uncertainty to work through and process, none of which can happen when you are in fear.
It's a bit like regret. With regret, you argue with the past even though you can't change it.
Fear is arguing with a future even though it hasn't even happened.
Then why do we have fear if it sucks so bad?
There is one use for fear and that is pragmatism.
In this case, it would be, washing your hands, staying in your home, wiping things down with Clorox, getting fresh air, exercise, sleep, standing 6 feet away from others, drink plenty of water, a positive attitude, and eating whole foods.
That's it. Those are the controllables.
Then fear has served its purpose and you can kindly tell it to fuck off.
But that's why you are reading this right now... because you can't let the fear fall away.
The fear has gotten a hold of you.
Yeah, that happens when you're overstimulated with screens and things and you don't have the tools you need because you didn't realize fear was optional.
Don't worry, there was a time in which I didn't realize it either.
But I know now and I'd love to spend the next 6 weeks sharing the secrets to Fortitude with you.